Six days to go until I am sitting at the top of a mountain... All because I bit into a York Peppermint Patty. It won't be Zen, but I am 31 days closer. I am much closer to Zen than I was more than a month ago. I know what I want. It's not a … Continue reading 37 Days to Zen – 6 to Go
But this article isn’t about shock value or how stupid I was when I was young; it’s about how I realized that some battles aren’t worth my time. I was done with my second long term relationship and it occurred to me that I have never been good with friends or girlfriends/wife because I didn’t just let things go…I wanted to argue or mouth off. I’ve always been the asshole of whichever group I’ve been a part of and that was because of my mouth. I am not a physically imposing man and never have been but I could mouth off with the best of them. I let my opinions fly and even more than that, I would pick at people until situations were bad or people were pissed off. I always looked at it like this; if I can get someone pissed off but they still enjoy hanging out with me, they are real friends. Looking back on it, only 1 person remains from more than a decade ago. I probably ran more friends and girlfriends away than I needed to. Not that I regret it…I am where I always needed to be.
One of the things I actually lucked into as a kid was that I grew up most of my life with 3 channels. ABC, PBS and CBS (I think) and only ABC and PBS came in clearly so I watched a TON of edutainment and due to that I grew up with a wonder about the world. I also spent a lot of time watching British Comedies with my mom which I blame for making my heartache for places I have never been the whole world over. wild-kingdomIf it wasn't Sesame Street it was Mutual of Omaha's Wild Kingdom or Nova, Bill Nye The Science Guy (although he has turned out to be half a moron lately, suggesting that people who don't agree with him on global warming, oops, global cooling, oops, climate change should be jailed).
Chris and I have spent large portions of the last several days talking about Sailboats. I told him that if he starts going through the process of getting a blue water boat, I will delay going overseas because I would MUCH rather go overseas on a boat than on a plane.