37 Days to Zen – Day 23 Change Day 16 Down, 14 to Go

With day 16 in the books, I have to say I feel lighter. I woke up this morning feeling as if I have lost some weight, but I still won't hit the scales. I don't care about the numbers; I just care about the feeling. How I feel, both my body and mind. My daily … Continue reading 37 Days to Zen – Day 23 Change Day 16 Down, 14 to Go

37 Days to Zen – Day 12 Change Day 5

Less than a week in and I do feel a little better at least. I have woken up the past few days, and although the bed was still comfortable, I didn't hate getting out of bed and into the shower. Once out of the shower, I didn't necessarily want to get back in bed. It's … Continue reading 37 Days to Zen – Day 12 Change Day 5

37 Days to Zen – Maybe I Could Get the Cliffnotes

T-minus 3 days until I begin hating myself for bettering myself, much different than hating myself for destroying myself today. Waking up this morning was the same as the past several years, I didn't want to get out of bed even though I couldn't sleep anymore. My back hurts so bad at night that I … Continue reading 37 Days to Zen – Maybe I Could Get the Cliffnotes

Dream a Little Dream

I do not know why exactly I am having these dreams or why I am telling you about them but I hope none of you ever have to. They are just this side of soul-crushing. Do I have any dime store psychologists in the audience? What do you think? Can you help me have more getting touched dreams and less my world just fell apart ones?