There are some days I am not worth shooting, and since I am writing this at night, I can go ahead and tell you that today was one of those days.
I felt like crap since waking up. I didn’t want to get out of bed; I didn’t want to get in the shower, I didn’t want to move.
I remained miserable all day, from start to finish.
At one point in the early afternoon, I became dizzy and hot, almost as if I was going through menopause. Really.
Breakfast and lunch were the same, eggs and some beef jerky for breakfast and a meat lunch of, you guessed it, chicken.
It couldn’t have been the food that made me dizzy, or made me tired all day or made me feel like I had been run over by seven Russian quarter horses.
I forced myself to finish out the day and had a small salad before dinner before putting on the headphones to listen to some law of attraction meditation, it’s worth listening to.
I felt weak all day, drained.
I struggled to carry small hand tools.
It was a feeling of being completely useless to the universe.
Almost as if I didn’t belong.
I will have to snap out of it, especially if its just a mental thing.
I could be getting sick, but don’t show a fever or any other signs as of now.
I hope I can sleep it off, and hope this sleeping pill kicks in soon.
Until tomorrow and hopefully a much better day…