T-minus 3 days until I begin hating myself for bettering myself, much different than hating myself for destroying myself today. Waking up this morning was the same as the past several years, I didn't want to get out of bed even though I couldn't sleep anymore. My back hurts so bad at night that I … Continue reading 37 Days to Zen – Maybe I Could Get the Cliffnotes
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37 Days to an Asylum – Which Might be Zen
T-minus 4 days. Four days until I wave a tearful goodbye to Taco Bell for a while. Wendy's Baconator. McDonald's McMuffins. Hell, I am choking up a little as I type this out. Well, the choking might be Swiss Cake Roll induced, as four of those little brown devils is what I had for breakfast. … Continue reading 37 Days to an Asylum – Which Might be Zen
37 Days to Zen, 2 Days Until I Slit my Throat – Day 3
My mood swings are the same, as they should be since my diet hasn't changed, going from happy while eating to borderline suicidal hours after consumption. And if you think I am joking about the depression, you haven't spent the last few years with me. It's real, and I am now beginning to believe it's mostly food related.
37 Days to Either a Heartattack or Zen – Day 2
So, with day 2 in the books, I felt good for a total of an hour and a half, the total time it took me to consume my meals. The rest of the day I remained as sluggish as always, irritable, and an uneasy feeling now growing in the pit of my stomach.
37 Days to Zen – Day 1
T-minus 7 days until my body begins to go into complete and total shock. I have grown tired of feeling tired, aching, stressed, and feeling completely useless in the universe. Day one consisted of the regular day to day operations of being a complete failure on a planetary scale.
37 Days to Zen – Introduction
Over the past eight years, I have been on again off again with so many things that should have been "life changing." Diets (I lost 100 pounds on one over a nine-month period), yet can't seem to stay on one for any serious amount of time. Meditation (I have tried countless videos from awakening my … Continue reading 37 Days to Zen – Introduction
Chop's Guide to the Galaxy 